JoJo on the Go

       In PA school one of our professors always said "trust the process" .  What she meant is that we had to trust the the professors were giving us the skills and knowledge to get through school, pass boards and not look completely moronic at our first jobs (maybe we still did 😆). I held onto that but now realize it can be applied in a biblical sense as well.       Today marks 98 days since Jason left – this time. On Friday, 100 days later, we get to see him and excitement would be an understatement. (HE'S GRADUATING FROM ARMY RANGER SCHOOL! HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?) He has not seen Sebastian since he was 11 months old and as most of you know, children change so quickly. I am overjoyed thinking about the two of them together again.       I could not tell you how many times over the past couple years someone has said to me “you know what you signed up for” when talking about Jason being gone. More and more this has been on...

  I had the wonderful opportunity to get some time alone the past couple days. The dog was at doggie daycare and Abby, who has the most amazing selfless soul, offered to take Sebastian overnight. When she asked I felt reluctant because it actually made me feel like I was failing. I have struggled every single day Jason has been gone this time. Work, the day to day, exercise - all of it just feels like I am going through the motions. I’m just really tired and sad. I realized the isolation from moving, pregnancy, having a baby in addition to the events of the world and Jason being gone have finally caught up to me. I am a little depressed. I still try to find the joy in each day but I am also a little blue and I know that is ok.  I am telling you all this because I think its important to be resilient and to put our best feet forward but its also ok to be vulnerable. I think vulnerability strengthens our relationship with God and potentially others around us if we let it. Those...