twinkle twinkle
Kinsley, tonight I held you next to me a little tighter. You love to be snuggled and sung to, especially as the day winds down. “twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are” We sang this together tonight as we rocked in your chair, your head against my chest. I look at your tiny body and how much it has grown in my lap over the past 23 months . I think about the words of the song we are singing wishing you were old enough to understand time and that I will be away for 3 months. I wish you could look in the sky knowing I am looking at the same starry sky thinking of you. I will miss your 2 nd birthday this year, I will also miss Thanksgiving. I will miss 3 months of daycare drop off hugs, bath time giggles, & bedtime tickles with you and Sebastian. As the time for me to leave draws closer I already feel the hole in my heart opening to emptiness. This is a feeling I have never felt, a feeling I did not know I was capable of feeling. Becoming a mom has opened ...